Hey Everyone!

I hope your Memorial Day weekend and day went well...and better than mine did. It rained ALL day today and right now it is still sprinkling out. So only thing that Matt, Korben and I did was go to the store. Went to Sam's Club and bought Korben his diapers..They were only 30 bucks for two mega packs. We went to Kroger's yesterday to get him diapers and ONE mega pack costss almost 24 bucks!! can you beleive that!! I told Matt that we should stock up on Size 1 diapers for the next one. Our next one will be here in 5 years. In 5 years diapers will be about 35 bucks or so. But I told him that if I am home then that the baby will be wearing Cloth Diapers. He didn't understand what I was talking about so I had to explain it to him. Geesh sometimes I think he is a true blonde! J/K!! lol

Ok I got off topic...Oh ok so After Sam's Club (getting caught in the rain also) we went to Walmart so Matt could get his game. So we got his game (Quake 3 arena or something like that), two camping chairs that right now is being used as a chair in our living room some soda (I call it pop Matt calls it coke) and some film. We came home and have been inside ALL day. Was going to go to a Cookout at the center here on campus but I think it most likely got canceled cuz of the rain.

Friday is my 21st Birthday!!! YEAH!!!!! I get to drive 4 1/2 hours to Carrolton KY on Friday also to meet my parents. We are dropping off Korben and he will be staying with my parents for a whole week while Matt and I are in Florida June 4th - 9th. I will miss him so bad but I will have Major fun in FLORIDA!! In FL they have been having forest fires and some interstates and highways have been closed but I hope it doesn't effect us while we are there. It is right in Orlando. Gosh I hope it clears up and everything is fine by the time we get there. And we can land the plane without difficulty from the smoke in the air.

Recently I have been watching plane movies on TV. I shouldn't be because they have been freaking me out and making me think its a sign from up above telling me NOT to fly. Matt and I watched a movie on TBS (It hink) by Stephen King called the Langalers or something like that. IT was spooky but VERY unlikely to happen. Then Matt suggests to rent Passenger 57 and Air Force One and another plane movie to freak me out more.

Geesh Korben...just now I find him on the floor with MAtt's headphone/mic set and the mic is totally off the headphone set..I freak out and he says I broke it (Mama broke it). Lovely child. But it wasn't broke. I fixed it like usual. He is driving me up the wall right now. Throwing things around and talking loudly. Matt is asleep in bed. He works at 2am. ugh.....I need to put Korben to bed or something. I guess I really do need that week vacation!!!! =o)

Hey All! I am bored and can't sleep right now. Korben is still up. He is watching Alladin for the first time right now. Seems to like it. He is laying on the floor on his blankie looking up at the TV. I asked him if he wanted to got o bed and he said no. We will see in about 15 minutes if he still says the samething.

He has been more interested in potty training lately. He has been telling me when he has to go pee and has gone #2 on the potty also. He prefers the 'big' potty over the 'little' potty. So I am happy now that all my work is finally paying off. Matt said to give it time that he will tell you whe he is ready. So he isn't fully potty trained yet. maybe another month or so and he will be FULLY potty trained. yea! =o)

Whatelse. My weekend went well. We were suppose to go to Cheatham Lake on Saturday but it ended up raining and it was cloudy so we went on Sunday instead. Played Tennis in the morning then went to the lake and stayed out there for about 3 hours. Matt and I got burnt. I had put sunscreen on Korben but he still got a little red.

My brother Eric and his girlfriend Amber are coming on Thursday afternoon from Ohio. They are staying till Sunday. We are going to take them to Downtown Nashville on Thursday and drop Korben off at the inlaws then and have him stay there till Saturday afternoon. Then on Friday Matt, Eric, Amber and I are going camping and going to Fall Creek Falls State Park. Its not suppose to be warm which sucks cuz I want to swim but it will be good hiking weather. And it might rain. =o( But we should have an awesome time! Can't wait. I haven't seen them since December at Christmas time. Its been a while.

I think thats all I wanted to talk about. Korben is asleep now. I gave him 15 minutes to be out and I was right. Man am I good or what! =o)

Well, lets see where I can start at. Monday..Can't remember what we did. I don't think anything. Korben played with his friend Leeza outside.. They looked so cute together. They were both picking (they look like cherries but are hard like apples) but they aren't ripe yet. They were both standing under a branch picking them and testing both me and Leeza's mom out. They were trying to eat them. Leeza's mom told me that they will be going to Russia here in a while. They will be there for 10 weeks. That is where Leeza's mom is from. And Leeza knows three languages, Russian, English and Baby! Bright little girl. But yea Korben will be wanting a playmate for summer and he won't have one. SO we will have to find another playmate. Maybe Issac will be around. Him and Korben are about the same age. We haven't seen them around since Halloween night.

Ok on Tuesday we went swimming. We went to the Recreation Center here on campus. We scanned our ID's to get in and they didn't work. We couldn't get in because we aren't students in the summer program. So we asked if we can pay a guest fee which is like 2 bucks or so. NO we have to buy a membership for the summer which is 50 bucks a person. DON'T THINK SO. I mean man we pay this school $$ to go here we LIVE on campus and we can't use the swimming pool without buying a summer membership. I mean it should be like the YMCA where you go and pay like 3 bucks to use anything. But no stupid ass people. UGH! But so We went swimming for FREE!! Yea it was in a creek but there were alot of people there. And there was a waterfall there. Matt and Korben swam I just watched. I am not to thrilled about swimming in a creek with fish and snakes. YES snakes. I saw two. One in the water and one out of the water. There were three kids (probably like 18) finding snakes and picking them up like Steve Irwin. When I saw them pick it up I HAD to do my Irwin imitation *with my best Australian accent* " Oh I got me a big one here, gotta watch it doesn't strike ya, its a wild one alright" yea I crack myself up! But Korben and Matt had a fun time. I got a little burnt but am recovering! =o)

On Wednesday, Lets see, only thing I can remember is being outside for 4 hours with Korben. YES 4 hours. Matt and I took Korben out at around 3pm to play and we went and got the mail. So after we got the mail we went to the playground. We were there for a while and Matt was getting boted..Boo hoo matt. So I say ok you can go home. We are staying out because I have been inside ALL day long. So Korben and I play outside and a boy about 5 years old comes over and plays with him. Korben helps him put ants in the bucket. That last for like 15 minutes and Korben saw Leeza's mom walk up the sidewalk and he goes and greets her. He walks her to her door and goes right inside their apartment! =o) He wanted to play with Leeza. So I go over and Korben is playing on their floor while Leeza and her Dad are watching the rest of Barney. Leeza's mom went out with a coupld of her girlfriends for dinner so Korben Leeza her dad and I go to the playground and they play for a long time. Going down the slide up the slide (which was Korben) and hanging on the bars and picking up sticks and swinging (flying like an airplane). But he had a blast. If I didn''t tell you Leeza's dad is about 50 or so. He has a 35 year old son so he has to be about 50. Leeza's mom I guess would be about 30 I figure. So I didn't feel a bit weird going to the playground with her dad since he is around my Dad's age. So we left and Korben had a fit! yes a fit. He likes to show his true colors.

And today..Well we didn't get out of the house till about 2:30. So Matt Korben and I go take a walk to the Day Care that Korben will be attending in August to drop off papers. Its called Project H.E.L.P

It was first started out for a Day Care for the handicapped but just recently opened up for the non-handicapped children between the ages of 15 months and 36 months. But its a really nice place with friendly people. They have mostly handicapped children either with hearing difficulties or speaking difficulties or any other handicaps. But it didn't bother me any. I think it bothers Matt a bit but he wouldn't tell me if it did or not. We got to check out all the room and watch them interact with the children in a different room where they couldn't see us. And Korben didn't want to leave. He went outside and played with the other children. Out there there was one with I think Down syndrome and one was deaf and one had dwarfism. The one with Dwarfism (excuses me for that I am not sure what the correct word for it is) she was the cutest little girl. I think she was about 2 or a little younger. They had to hold her or put her into the Little Tykes boat. But I love to have Korben interact with other kids that are special in their own way. Like the Director said that he can set an example for them. Which is good to hear as long as he doesn't teach them bad things! =o) So we come home from there and go to Kmart to pick up a pair of swimming trunks for Korben and a computer game for me. I got "The game of Life" but its boring. You click the mouse to spin the wheel and the car moves. Thats about it. But I am not going to tell MAtt since he bought it for me! =o) I have just been kinda bored at night when there is nothing on Tv.

Plans for Friday and Saturday and Sunday:

Friday: Do three loads of laundry. after laundry go to in-laws to visit. Go to Ray's ( I adopted him as my father-in-law) have him look at my Sims 'Livin Large' game since its not working. Then probably go play Tennise if its not too hot out. and spend the night at in-laws

Saturday: Going to the Lake all day with Ray and BIL Chris. Going to be fun. Hope Korben behaves. Maybe spend the night again at in-laws

Sunday: Dunno yet. Play my game that Ray fixed maybe. And cook dinner at 3 since Matt will have to go to bed at 5pm. He has to work at 1am the next morning. Lucky him huh!?!

Ok that is all. A long Entry I know. I won't slack anymore I promise!! I need to go to bed. Its already 10:22pm I have been wrting for over 30 minutes. YAWN!

Hey All!!!

I am in a better mood right now than I was earlier today. I woke up with a headache. And today I wanted to see if Korben wanted to start potty training. Well he was into it and all. I put up a Potty Chart and everytime he goes he gets to put a sticker up. Well after the seventh sticker was put up he started to pee in his training pants. He did this two times. I was so frusrtated because I thought he really wanted to do this. But I guess not. I told Matt that its up to Korben if he wants to pee on the potty. If not he can stay in his diapers until he is five. I was so upset about it. UGH! Oh well though. Like I told Aishy,

"I am working on Korben. Its so hard though. He doesn't mind being wet which is causeing trouble. And he doesn't tell me when he has to go. I usually have to ask him. Yea I agree with the potty training being their decsision...most of the time he wants to go aftr bath time and when MAtt or I go. I tell Matt that I can't pee in peace anymore =o)"

Well maybe next month we will try again. Or maybe my parents can start him out when he goes there in June! =o) *grins*

Before I Was A Mom

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Before I was a mom I made and ate hot meals.

I had unstained clothing.

I had quiet conversations on the phone.

Before I was a Mom

I slept as late as I wanted and never worried

about how late I got into bed.

I brushed my hair and my teeth everyday.

Before I was Mom

I cleaned my house each day.

I never tripped over toys or forgot words to

lullabies.

Before I was a Mom

I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous

I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom

I had never been puked on pooped on spit on chewed on

peed on or pinched by tiny fingers

Before I was a Mom

I had complete control of my mind my thoughts my body

and my mind.

I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom

I never held down a screaming child so

that doctors could do tests or give shots.

I never looked into teary eyes and cried.

I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.

I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby

sleep.

Before I was a Mom

I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't

want

to put it down.

I never felt my heart break into a million pieces

when

I couldn't stop the hurt.

I never knew that something so small

could affect my life so much.

I never knew that I could love someone so much.

I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom

I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside

my body.

I didn't know how special it could feel

to feed a hungry baby.

I didn't know that bond between a Mother and her

child.

I didn't know that something so small could make me

feel so important.

Before I was a Mom

I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every

10 minutes to make sure all was ok

I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love

the heartache, the wonderfulment or the satisfaction

of being a Mom.

I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much

before I was a Mom.

This is for all the mothers who froze their buns off on metal bleachers at

football games Friday night instead of watching from cars, so that when

their kids asked, "Did you see me?" they could say, "Of course, I wouldn't

have missed it for the world," and mean it.

This is for all the mothers who have sat up all night with sick toddlers

In their arms, wiping up barf-laced with Oscar Mayer wieners and

cherry Kool-Aid saying, "It's OK honey, Mommy's here."

This is for all the mothers of Kosovo who fled in the night and can't

find their children.

This is for the mothers who gave birth to babies they'll never see.

And The mothers who took those babies and gave them homes.

For all the mothers of the victims of the Colorado shooting, and the

mothers of the murderers.

For the mothers of the survivors, and the mothers who sat in front

of their TVs in horror, hugging their child who just came home from

school, safely.

For all the mothers who run carpools and make cookies and sew

Halloween Costumes. And all the mothers who DON'T.

What makes a good Mother anyway? Is it patience?

Compassion? Broad hips? The ability to nurse a baby, cook dinner,

and sew a button on a shirt, all at the same time? Or is it heart?

Is it the ache you feel when you watch your son or daughter disappear

down the street, walking to school alone for the very first time?

The jolt that takes you from sleep to dread, from bed to crib at 2 a.m.

to put your hand on the back of a sleeping baby?

The need to flee from wherever you are and hug your child when you

hear news of a school shooting, a fire, a car accident, a baby dying?

So this is for all the mothers who sat down with their children and

explained all about making babies.

And for all the mothers who wanted to but just couldn't.

This is for reading "Goodnight, Moon" twice a night for a year.

And then reading it again. "Just one more time."

This is for all the mothers who yell at their kids in the grocery

store and swat them in despair and stomp their feet like a tired 2-year

old who wants ice cream before dinner.

This is for all the mothers who taught their children to tie their

shoelaces before they started school.

And for all the mothers who opted for Velcro instead.

For all the mothers who bite their lips sometimes until they bleed

when their 14 year olds dye their hair green. Who lock themselves in

the bathroom when babies keep crying and won't stop.

This is for all the mothers who show up at work with spit-up in their

hair and milk stains on their blouses and diapers in their purse.

This is for all the mothers who teach their sons to cook and their

daughters to sink a jump shot.

This is for all mothers whose heads turn automatically when a little

voice calls "Mom?" in a crowd, even though they know their own

offspring are at home.

This is for mothers who put pinwheels and teddy bears on their

children's graves.

This is for mothers whose children have gone astray, who can't find

the words to reach them.

This is for all the mothers who sent their sons to school with stomach

aches, assuring them they'd be just FINE once they got there, only

to get calls from the school nurse an hour later asking them to please

pick them up, right away.

This is for young mothers stumbling through diaper changes and sleep

deprivation.

And mature mothers learning to let go.

For working mothers and stay-at-home mothers.

Single mothers and married mothers.

Mothers with money, mothers without.

This is for you all. So hang in there.

ho um....i am bored...really bored...and hungry.

Well Korben got a belated birthday gift in the mail today from my brother Jason and sil Racheal. Korben was all excited because he knew it was for him.

He opened it and it was a HUGE I mean HUGE Animal Cookies box (by Nabisco). And in the Animal Cookie Box there were a box of Oreos, Animal Cookies, Cheese nips, Nutter Butter cookies, Lifesavers, Ritz plain and ones with peanut butter and cheese and a whole bunch more. He went wild. He wanted to open ALL of the food up. But of course we didn't. So now our Pantry is basically the junk food pantry. But with GOOD junk fod in it. I am going to have to mail my brother and SIL a big thank you for it. Nw we won't have to buy anymore junk food for a while. I am glad Korben got this..he has too many toys and clothes. Thinking of food..I am hungry. I might have a piece of left over pizza and some velvetta shells..yum sounds good to me!