Before I Was A Mom

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Before I was a mom I made and ate hot meals.

I had unstained clothing.

I had quiet conversations on the phone.

Before I was a Mom

I slept as late as I wanted and never worried

about how late I got into bed.

I brushed my hair and my teeth everyday.

Before I was Mom

I cleaned my house each day.

I never tripped over toys or forgot words to

lullabies.

Before I was a Mom

I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous

I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom

I had never been puked on pooped on spit on chewed on

peed on or pinched by tiny fingers

Before I was a Mom

I had complete control of my mind my thoughts my body

and my mind.

I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom

I never held down a screaming child so

that doctors could do tests or give shots.

I never looked into teary eyes and cried.

I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.

I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby

sleep.

Before I was a Mom

I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't

want

to put it down.

I never felt my heart break into a million pieces

when

I couldn't stop the hurt.

I never knew that something so small

could affect my life so much.

I never knew that I could love someone so much.

I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom

I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside

my body.

I didn't know how special it could feel

to feed a hungry baby.

I didn't know that bond between a Mother and her

child.

I didn't know that something so small could make me

feel so important.

Before I was a Mom

I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every

10 minutes to make sure all was ok

I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love

the heartache, the wonderfulment or the satisfaction

of being a Mom.

I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much

before I was a Mom.